#15: My very last diary entry

Weirdly enough, I've been keeping a small diary on my computer since the beginning of freshman year. On the first and last day of school each year, I forced myself to write a few sentences about the year and how it felt. Now, as I approach my last day of high school, I decided I'd finish it. Let's take a look, shall we?

Freshman Year (2019-2020):

First day of school (August 27th, 2019): 

Dear Vidhi,  

    I've just entered my freshman year at Troy High! I am really nervous about what awaits me, and I'm a little bit jealous of all the graduating seniors, but I'll take this nervousness head-on and embrace my future here! See you on the flip side!

Last day of school (June 11th, 2020): 

Dear Vidhi,

    Well, today would have marked my last day of 9th grade at Troy High. What a shame I'm missing the festivites (finals) because of this strange disease racking the Earth. It's ok, as long as I'm safe and staying inside. Maybe this will all be over soon, and sophomore year will give me more pleasure than the latter half of freshman year gave me. See you on the flip side.

Sophomore Year (2020-2021):

First day of school (September 1st, 2020): 

Dear Vidhi,

    COVID never ceased to exist, so WOO! First day of learning in my pajamas! I love the thought of waking up and simply having to walk two steps to my desk for online learning. I am a little worried, though. Maybe this lifestyle will become boring after several days, but there are pros and cons to every experience, am I right? Let's just sit back, relax, and wait to find out what the future holds for me. See you on the flip side.

Last day of school (June 16th, 2021): 

Dear Vidhi,

    You dont understand how much I learned how to cheat this year like OMG. We never went back in-person, which still blows my mind but issok, because we got to cheat our way through all of this year. Junior year is definitely gonna be a hard year, tho. We'll see what it's like to be a upperclassman and worry abt the SATs and whatnot. Whatever, as long as I dont have to worry about tests and weird stuff but ok. See you on the flip side.

Junior Year (2021-2022):

First day of school (August 31st, 2021): 

Dear Vidhi,

    Umm, so I'm actually really worried. I spent the entire summer at SAT prep hoping to bring back all the skills of test-taking I lost over sophomore year, but I don't think it worked. I'm taking more APs this year and hoping my grades stay intact for college applications, but I really don't know how I'm supposed to survive. Especially after AP Chemistry last year? No way I'm making it through alive. Pray for me. See you on the flip side.

Last day of school (June 16th, 2022): 

Dear Vidhi,

    You will find me slowly deleting the entirety of junior year out of my mind over the next 5 days. Everything felt harder in-person: waking up, socializing, working, test-taking, eating, sleeping, just to name a few. Now, the only thing I have to worry about is college applications. Hopefully I didn't mess up too much this year and I'll still be able to get into my dream schools, but sometimes things don't work out. See you on the flip side.

Senior Year (2022-2023):

First day of school (August 30th, 2022): 

Dear Vidhi,

    I cannot explain just how relieved I feel now. I still have college applications and decisions waiting ahead of me, but the mere thought of being a senior gives me a big smile. This year is definitely going to be brighter. Let's do this :) See you on the flip side, one last time.

(Basically) Last day of school (basically May 24th, 2023):

Dear little Vidhi's,

    It's me, your older self! Guess what? We made it! We're about to graduate and attend MSU to pursue pre-medicine, just like you always wanted. I know it's been rough, but we were strong. I know you may not believe it right now, but we actually do make it out of the mess that is high school. Looking back, I am so filled with joy knowing we kept this diary on the "notes" app on our phone - we've come a long way. I love you, never forget that. Goodbye, little Vidhi. I'll always be here, on the flip side. 

Finally, to Mrs. Liamini's 6th hour: I love you all so much. It's been one hell of a year and I think I might cry thinking about this being the end of our journey as a close group of peers. It's unfortunate we're still waiting for Godot. Maybe Godot will come next year. Cheers to the last 12 years and cheers to all of our bright futures <3

(Sadly) Signing off from this blog,

Vidhi Kamat